Christmas time is near, Time for toys and time for cheer. We've been good, but we can't last, Hurry Christmas, Hurry fast!

So, it's officially the Christmas Season! And I absolutely love this season. all the joy and cheer, the cold, the hot cocoa, the fire places, the rumors and excitement of snow, and then the disappointment when it doesn't snow because we're in NC, the decorating the tree, the family members, the parades, the singing, the lights, everything. It's beautiful! I can't wait until my mom and I go out and look at lights closer to Christmas. It's become an annual thing for us. (:

It was really nice to sleep in today, you have no idea. This whole past week, I went to sleep around 11-12 because I couldn't get to sleep. then i woke up around 5:30-5:40 every day because my alarm clock hasn't been going off lately. and repeat 5x. how lovely, right? (I've been saying 'lovely' a lot. i just love that word(:

I love my friends. Their my favorite people in the world. Especially the few Clover people I still talk to. I've been gone 2+ years, and the ones I still talk to are true friends. When I moved, I lost a lot of those who I considered close friends. But, I still kept my best friend, Krysta, my swim team buddy, Hanna, an ex, Allen, and a really good guy friend, Devin. But that doesn't mean that I don't love my Apex/Holly Springs friends. Over the 2+ years, though, I've gained and lost a ton of friends, more so than for the 6 years I lived in Clover. I started here in 8th grade, and the only person I'm still friends with from the beginning of 8th grade is Adam. From the end, there's Becky. Summer was Alli and Blake. Those are my Apex people. Then the HS people, I basically lost all of my freshman year people. Sophomore year, I have Devan and Alex T. Those people are the people that have kept me here, and I have so much love for them for that.

Last night, I was talking to one of my clover friends. I trusted him with my biggest secret. he was the only one there for me last night when I really needed someone, and that just brought us closer. And we started talking about how I've changed so much, and how I miss the old me. I don't even remember the old me, that's how bad I am now. He had to explain it to me; that I was always nice, was funny, I wasn't afraid to be myself, and I was strong. Sure, I'm always nice, and can be funny. But I can't be myself anymore. I don't know who I truly am anymore. All I know is that I care for everyone. I'm not that strong anymore. I'm only strong about one thing in particular. But just hearing him say those things, it just...it's hard to explain. it just made me feel good about myself because I'm remembering who I was and who I wish to be again. I loved myself in 7th grade. Nothing was wrong except for the fact I knew I was moving. but i was myself, i didn't care what people think about me, and I loved life. And look at me now. I can't hold on to the crappy stuff that happened. I have to just let go of it. So thank you, friend. (:

I suppose I'm going to start writing again. I miss writing, even though it's only been 4 days since I've last written. haha, I'm a loser. (: I can't decide whether to go back to a story that I've started before, or if I should start a new one. We'll see, we'll see. (:

the Apex parade is tonight. I have to be at school at 2, and we'll leave at 3. lovely. It's supposed to snow tonight! (See, two of my favorite things about the Christmas Season in one night.. and then tomorrow morning when i see that it didn't snow, three things!) I'm not excited, considering I'm back in my boot. Yesterday at practice, my ankle was really bothering me. I ended up getting out of parade formation and sitting out, crying. how cute. so, i'll be marching down the parade route in a boot, in a Barney suit, with a six foot metal pole in less that 30 degrees. Lovely.

We got our tree today. About time to decorate? Heck yes. But first, I have to clean my room. Heck no. haha.

Thanks for reading through these eyes.(:

Writing month?

And guess what? I won it. I completed my first novel, Time For a Change, within thirty days. It's 101 pages, and 50,666 words. It's not exactly that well, but it's most definitely the best work I've ever written. It was about a teenage girl who just failed her suicide attempt. Over the month or so that the novel goes on with, she falls in love, throws her parents in jail, and becomes her brother's guardian. She knew it was time for a change if she wanted to be happy for the first time in years. Here's an excerpt:

"So maybe I didn’t die for a reason; that’s what the counselor from the hospital was telling me. I didn’t want to believe her though. I just wanted to leave already. I wasn’t wanted in this world by anyone except for Alex; and sometimes he’s not enough anymore. But the counselor told me otherwise. “You’re loved by everyone, darling,” she pat my numb hand. I would shake my head and ignore her just as I did every day when she came to talk to me."

I use that excerpt for everything that's needed for it just because it's one of my favorite paragraphs of all of it. It was used on the NaNo site itself, and also for the yearbook at my school. They interviewed me for my creative writing class, and asked me if they could put something I've written in there. heck yes, you can haha.



As for writing, I won the writing contest! No, not first place...or second...or third... but that doesn't matter! I'm still getting my short story "Family Before Lovers" which is about a girl(of course) trying to break up her brother and his fiance on their wedding day. I'm fifteen, and my life goal is complete: to be a published author. heck yes! (again)

This month of November was pretty good, must I say. Some parts were bad, but I can get over those. This month was amazing. I can't wait for Decemeber now. December 5th is the Apex parade, which the GHR is in. it.will.be.cold.:/ But hey, it'll also be three months for something!(: only few will get it. but I'm very proud about that. Then Dec. 11th is the holly springs parade, that the GHR is in, of course. it.will.be.even.colder. but then the luncheon is after that. and that night is Dani's sweet sixteen(: then just four days later is my brother's birthday. and then there's like a week after that, and then Christmas break!(: I might( AND HOPEFULLY♥) be going to Clover after Christmas, which would just make the ending to 2010 ABSOLUTELY AMAZING. I'd be in Clover for the New Year, which i sort of wanted to be in apex for , but whatever. it's totally worth it. haha.

alright, well, now that NaNo is finished, and I just finished this blog, it's homework time. I already finished my biology, but now I have to read for English. then i need to study for biology. i can't fail that class... wish me luck!

thanks for reading through these eyes♥

Don't be ashamed to cry, let me see you through cause i've seen the darkness, too.

This is one of my philosophies; I'm always here for EVERYONE. I've decided that I want to major in Psychology, and minor in Creative Writing. I mean, you don't need a degree to be an author. So, It all works out well. I love helping people. It just makes me feel like a great person, like I'm trusted and everything. Of course, this is even if I end up going to college. We'll see.

School's been interesting... 3 B's and a C. One of the B's should be an A, because it was a 92.45. The C should be a B because it was an 84.5. then the two C's are 91's. I'm hating my creative writing teacher though. ugh. haha. but this semester is ALMOST OVER. only like 4 weeks left until exams I believe, if not 3. crazy! next semester is geometery, yearbook, theatre, and civics and economics. i'm supposed to get out of theatre for some reason though...ask my friends. haha.

NaNo is going pretty good. i have about 5 days left, and I'm at 36,000 words. I've procrastinated A LOT (like right now) but I work better under pressure. (:

I'm getting a short story published! Can you believe that?! It's absolutely AMAZING! :D Take that creative writing teacher.... :P

Hmm...that's all I think...

Thanks for reading(:

yay for school....

SO! Wow, it's been such a long time since i've updated my blog...haha. I'm actually in child development right now. we're doing a project for calorie intake for pregnant mothers, and six people (INCLUDING DEVAN!!!!!(: ) went to the library. and one of my friends was like "...carey, go update your blog!" so here i am. haha. yayyy.

Devan and I are gonna make smoothies(:

Devan keeps calling me a dork...:/

I wish that I had some cheesecake...haha. I just read an email about the band fundraising cheesecakes. sometimes i wish i was still in band...but if i was still in band, i wouldn't have became BEST friends with Devan :D
Devan's reading this. she's like "...WIN! :D I like that smiley face...."
she's sketch♥ "You would..."

i love her♥

nothing's really that new... marching band ended and now we just have parade season, so we have two practices every other week. yay? we actually have a preformance this thursday for the elementary and middle school kids that are right next to the high school.

oh, my god. speaking of my high school! we got our hour long lunch taken away because there have been a bunch of fights in one week. and now i don't have lunch with my love...:/ (devan) "awwwww!"

hmm......i'm unaware of what to say now, so i think i'm gonna go.

i'll report back probably when i get home :P

♥

evacuate the dancefloor(just the song that was playing...haha)

sorry it's been so long! i didn't really know what to write about on here besides band. i need a new thing :P and i found what i'll be writing about here today!

so, it's october 28th, right? yes. tomorrow's the last home football game of the season. saturday is the last competition. sunday is halloween. and then MONDAY starts NaNoWriMo! and i'm really excited! NaNo(for those of you who don't know) is National Novel Writing Month. it's in november, and we have 30 days to write a novel. i KNOW it'll be hard...but i'm willing to try, and that's what counts(: wish me luck(:




and now, i go to talk about band. :P
we had a competition at fuquay the other weekend. we did GREAT! we got reserved champs, which makes it that every competition we've gone to we've gotten a championship :D this show is just THAT amazing. except at cary band day, we're in class 3A. we're going up against fuqay, which we're not that worried about it, but Middle Creek. they've beaten us every competition, so i'm really nervous about it. but we'll see how that goes. at fuquay, i DID compete, even with my broken ankle. it hurt like CRAZY after. i mean, i was crying after it...:/ medicine was my best friend after that performance! haha. here are some pics (:


ending of the first movement. see, my face does NOT look happy like it's supposed to be...haha


ending of the 3rd movement. see, i couldn't get down on the ground, so i had to stand. and the way i had my hands on the ball(hahahahaha that's what she said... :P) it made me look like i'm sucking my thumb. hahaha. but i like this picture cause it's like they're all my minions or something....hahaha.

so, on october 25, my little nephew was born(: he is SO cute, OMG. hahaha.

SEEEEEE? he's like an angel!! 0:) hahahaha.

mkay, bye everyone(:

More Than A Feeling

More Than A Feeling by Boston. I've always loved Classic Rock, being "raised" by a family of old people. Anyways, this blog is going to be pointed towards my Biology teacher, Mrs. Brown, who really ticked me off today.
So, we're talking about DNA and RNA, right? and someone asks about mutations, and then after she explained it, she was like "that's why depressed people are depressed, there's a mutation in their DNA. it's just a chemical imbalance." and most people know that i'm depressed. and holy crap, that freaking irritated me SO much! their is NOTHING wrong with our DNA! their is NOTHING wrong with us besides the cause of our depression. oh my god, it was horrible! she was saying that we can fix our depression our selves, that we don't need any help, we don't need medication, we don't need to talk to anyone, etc. i almost started yelling at her. we supposedly choose our mood. so, when i want to be sad, i make myself sad? when i want to be happy, i'm happy? "sure, sad things happen, but YOU'RE the one that makes YOU sad! not the sad thing itself!" WTF MRS. BROWN.
i don't think teachers should be allowed to talk about that unless it's psychology or something. you never know when there's a suicidal or depressed kid in the class! or bi polar, which could just set them off! OH WAIT, he'll make himself set off, my bad! -.-

ugh. done for my rant for the day. otherwise, today was great until biology and the bus! i'm really excited for either this sunday or next weekend! you know why? i'm going swimming! why is this so exciting? because i'm gonna try to swim competitively again, and see if i still can. of course, it'll be hard with my ankle...but i can try, right? right. and the reason i'm trying again is because i might be doing the school swim team this year! the only reason i'm not sure about it is because i don't wanna be the ONE fat girl on the team. every swimmer i know that's on the team is skinny. and most teams i'm sure don't even allow fat girls on... :/ so we'll see how that goes. the best thing is that it ends in january, so i can still do winter guard (: but we'll see, we'll see. the worst part is that practice is at 5:15 am :/ but i can get over that, i'm sure. we'll see (:

all for now. bye(:

I don't ever want to believe, that when we die, we all leave

"Believe" by All American Rejects. YUM! haha. The reason I chose this song for the title is because in Creative Writing, we're talking about leaving a legacy. Usually when we die, we don't leave spiritually. Most people will keep those people in their hearts. And that's what I want to do, i want to stay in people's hearts forever. I just want to make a difference in people's lives, and I've already succeeded at that. I've saved three people's lives, and became one person's hero. and it just makes me feel amazing that i could do that. i swear, if i didn't have such a big passion for writing, i would go into Psychology. ♥

We're starting to read "The Last Lecture" by Randy Pousche. Just by watching an introduction video of Diane Saywer inspired me so much. I'm excited to write a memoir, but nervous at the same time. Mrs. Harrell says their gonna be happy stories... yeah right.

So, in creative writing, we just watched Freedom Writers, which is probably my
favorite movie now. It's basically about a teacher believing in her students, and the best part is that it's a true story! I love that movie. I highly recommend it.

I absolutely love my creative writing class; it's full of a diverse group of freshman through seniors, and i love them all. It just breaks my heart to see that we've all dealt with a lot of the same things, and we all write about it. Isn't is sad that in a lot of the short stories we wrote, someone was depressed, harming themselves, or ended up killing themselves? YES! there was one that a kid, Phillip, wrote about an 8th grader getting bullied so much that he went to Niagara Falls and killed himself. A reporter had some how heard about that over facebook, and I honestly almost cried hearing it. It just kills me that people kill themselves and such. It's horrible.

That's four paragraphs about Creative Writing...hmm...haha. Here's some updates on my life outside of school :P
So, I'm probably out of the rest of the marching band season as I broke my ankle :/ SAD FACE! I'm in a boot for at least a month, which makes it impossible to do guard. Friday's game was so interesting because I couldn't march the half time show. here's a picture... haha

yeaaah... haha. it was such an interesting game. and cold!
here's an actual picture of me during our first competition:

that's during the third movement, which is Hide and Seek by Imogen Heap♥

last but not least, this is a picture of me, my boyfriend, my best friend, her boyfriend, and our friend. (:

L-R: Thomas, Me, Devan, Josia, Ian. yayy :D

once my mom wakes up from her nap, I'm probably gonna play the piano. i miss my piano. thanks for reading(: ♥

Don't be afraid to let them show your true colors; true colors are beautiful like a rainbow

Once again, a GLEE song♥ Rachel sings this one, of course(: (True Colors)

That line, don't be afraid to let them show your true colors; true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow, has been speaking to me lately. It's saying that you need to be yourself. Be true. Don't hold back. Don't worry too much about others' feelings. Of course, not many people are gonna do that, now are they? haha. But I love that song.

This has pretty much been a horrible week, until today. Basically just family issues, and then my ankle, but I think(and hope) they're ending for now. Today was just a great day for the most part. My english teacher was absent, and the only bad thing about that was that the photography club meeting was canceled. sad face:/ but child development was fun, we're designing a day care(: it's a lot of fun, too :D then lunch was just a lot of fun with my best friend and my boyfriend and everything. in creative writing, i pretty much wasted the whole time talking with some friends but it was fun. then in biology we just talked the whole time. no homework, no band, and no job interview for a while...ugh. but then i went driving and went to walmart, and the only adult costumes for women they had was hookers. i was like REALLY?! so if the guard's going trick or treating together, i don't know what i'm gonna do. haha.

saturday we have a mini camp and we're learning the 4th movement. i'm NOT excited about that. but then thomas(boyfriend), devan(best friend), and her josia(her boyfriend) are going on a double date after practice. :D we're probably gonna sneak into see My Soul To Take since it's rated R. i've noticed like every scary movie is rated R... haha. hope they don't suck. apparently the Last Exorcist sucked, and I wanted to see that movie. i'll just get it when it's at red box :P haha

hmm.... i think that's all for now, talk to you next time (:

All that work and what did it get me?

Ah, GLEE♥ Kurt probably is my favorite character, next to Rachel, of course.
But anyways, "that work" that I'm talking about is color guard/marching band. and what it got me(or the entire regiment) was grand champion! we've now gotten grand champion at Northern Nash two years(or competitions) in a row(: yay, GHR! We have mini camp this week where we're learning the fourth movement drill. the fourth movement is Disney's Millennium, edited with some wheels of the bus of course. i'm excited though, as I made rifle(: but barely. i almost quit tryouts because I didn't think i could get it. i need to really practice it. and i will. (:

i'm being forced by Savannah to wear a dress tomorrow. yay? haha. i mean it's a cute dress, yes, but i don't wear dresses...especially to school. haha. i've changed so much sophomore year...guess that's a good thing?

tomorrow's monday..yay? this is gonna be an interesting week. i'll probably have to stay after school because friday night my brother got in a car accident and totaled the truck. so now we just have my dad's car, so yeaah. (he's okayish for the most part) so monday i have practice. tuesday i have practice. wednesday i have practice. thursday i have a job interview? and friday i have a game. saturday is mini camp. ew. band infested week... haha

remember: YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL IN EVERY SINGLE WAY. (:

alright, all for tonight. (:

blah, blah, blah

so, yesterday was our first competition(: and we were AMAZING! we got 1st place in like, everything. seriously, everything besides drum major :/ but we were AMAZING! we got 1st place in 1A/2A overall, and 2nd overall bands :D our show is When I Was Younger, featuring Looney Tunes, Noisy Wheels Of Joy, Conjunction Junction, and Hide and Seek.. we don't know the fourth movement yet...well i don't. here's our show on youtube (: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MXbiNLy1s5g it excites me. their was this amazing show band there, H.V Jenkins from Savannah Georgia. an all black band. and it completely destroyed us. haha. they were AMAZING! they were like crumpin and everything. haha. it made me want to be black so i could join that school... (: but that's not gonna happen. the only part of me that's black is my butt... (THANKS MOM. :P)

so, school's been great. my changed schedule is english II honors, child development, creative writing, and biology honors. i truly do miss band :/ but oh wells i guess. sacrifices.... :/ *sigh* anyways haha. but schools been good. i've made a lot of new friends this year, which makes me happy(: we just had spirit week this last week. monday was celebrity day, tuesday was freaking NERD DAY, the best day ever. wednesday was dress to impress, and picture day. thursday was wacky tacky day, and friday was purple craze day. and let me say, our football team freakin sucks. the other team had a touch down in the first minute.... the ending score for homecoming was holly springs: 7 cary: 38. F OUR LIVES. and we were like amazing last year. haha. oh wells.

guys freaking suck. just saying.(:

i'm listening to DON'T STOP BELIVING by JOURNEY :D ♥ yay them. ♥

sophomore years amazing. i'll upload some pics of this past week/year. (:

this is Nate... he was Billy Mays(RIP) on celeb day♥ i love nate. :D


Marina(the Asian) and Savannah as nerds(: their my favorites♥


me on nerd day :D


me and marina! OH! AND PLANK from ed, edd, and eddy! :DD


this is alex(on nerd day--he doesn't have to dress up) he's my friend. he makes me laugh. (:


this is my english teacher, mrs. mellette, and the photography teacher advisor :D she's like one of my favorite teachers ever. (this was wacky tacky day)


once again, this is alex(on wacky tacky day) see? he's funny. haha


this was on purple craze day. i was attempting to play clarient. it was quite funny. Savannah is musical perfection. (:

i think thats all, unless you want band ones or other sophomore year pictures. although, nobody reads this, sooo... haha.

alright, goodbye(:

i was interuppted by my friend via facebook, Bailey, to write this blog. i haven't updated in like... months. i've been WAY too busy. with guard/marching band, and school, i'm NEVER home. and when i am, i'm doing homework. or driving... haha. cause YES! i'm 15, and i got my permit!! and plus, i'm the president of the photography club :D I WIN :D

uhhh, i am unaware of what to say...
soo, goodbye. creative writing homework, here i come. (:

school's around the corner already?

that's right. i start school next wednesday, august 25th. i'm quite excited about my sophomore year right now, as well as disappointed. my original schedule was: English II honors, band, creative writing♥, and biology honors for first semester. second semester is geometry, wind ensemble(band), theatre arts I, and civics and economics. although, i'm drastically changing it... i'm getting out of band. and i'm quite scared about that. i've always loved band, but oh wells. if it means i can take my yearbook classes, i'll be fine. but i grew up with band, i'll be sad with out it. but it's all for the best. but now i won't know my real schedule until the first day of school. but oh wells.

i'm happier than ever since my brother moved in (: except i haven't written in a while. i've been mostly just messing around on photoshop, since i got that back♥

well, i'm done here. have a good day(:

so, i apologize for not updating in like a week! i was going to say "writing", but then i realized i haven't even written since i finished writing My New Life! All last week i wasn't home; i had drivers ed, and then Friday, band camp started. And for the rest of august, i have band camp. woo? but it's going to take out all my time of writing! (tear)

but, the good news is..... in 22 days, i can get my permit! :D i'm SO excited for that! and that also means, 22 days until my birthday<3 on the 28th, the guard girls want to throw me a party? (: and then the 29th i'm having a party at my house for my apex friends. sounds good, right? i hope so. haha.

band camp is not like the movie AT ALL. although, i haven't even seen the movie. haha. i really want to, though. but instead, i'm in guard this year. so at least, we're inside for part of it. although, if the heat keeps it up, the whole band will have to be inside eventually. but oh wells.

so, my cousins getting married! well, in nine months. and she went to go get her dress today with her mom, sister, two of their friends, and my mom. i wan't invited because their "wasn't any room". and then i wasn't invited to the wedding--which really pissed me off-- because i'm "too young". i started crying and everything. but i'm going instead of my dad, apparently. but i'll probably end up babysitting the three year old, and the other 5 young kids. -_- but hey, it's on a beach, and i'll get lots of money. i'll be good. haha.

goodnight, everyone<3

today was just a laid back day. mom and i went shopping for most of the day, and just had our girls day. of course, it was more of the beginning of our girls weekend. tomorrow, we're driving to Clover and back, and we'll see my brother and my sister in law. i'm excited about this, as Andrew has finally come to realize he needs help. then, sunday, i should be hanging with one of my friends, and then Mom will be taking me out to drive:D monday starts my drivers ed in car for the week. if i do well, i can get my permit when i turn 15. also, tuesday starts band camp! i'm excited about it.

but, sadly, because i was out all day, i have yet to write. this is the first time i've written all day, and it's my blog:does not count. but tomorrow in my six hours in the car, i'll be reading Just Listen by Sarah Dessen, and writing my story that Becky wants me to give her for her birthday. and even though i feel the urge to write some, i can't because i've got to wake up early and i love sleep.

i'm currently talking to one of my old close guy friends from freshman year. he got mad at me about stuff i did and we just stopped being friends cause we fought alot. but now, band camps coming up, and we'll be great friends--or at least good friends. hopefully. wish me luckk.

well, night everyone<33

The past two days have been quite successful. Yesterday i wrote for seven hours straight, and today five hour straight. And within these twelve hours, i wrote, edited, wrote more, and finished my short story, which is called Family Before Lovers. I'll probably post it on my fanfiction soon, if i decided to not actually write it out. Krysta says i should wait until after the contest closes, which is August 30th, so i'll probably think about it as time goes by. i feel more confident about this entree than my two from the first contest. since April, i've grown in writing, i've gotten a lot better. but, of course, i could always be better. but for a fourteen year old, i think i'm pretty good.

this week is my last week of summer. and if i'm not hanging out with friends, i'll be writing. i have to finish at least two more stories to complete one of the two goals left on my list to do before my birthday. and once band camp starts, i'll be too busy. plus, next week, i take in car drivers ed. of course, i guarentee i won't be able two finish My New Life and Through These Eyes(story) by Monday. but the way i've been writing, i could probably finish My New Life by then. i know what i want to happen, and i know how i want it to end. i just need to get there. and i will. TTE, i know somewhat what i want to happen, but i haven't fully decided yet. I scrapped My Life In Reverse since i had no where to go on it. and i'm think about scrapping I Miss You, even though i know what i want to happen and everything. I'm just stuck when it comes to writing it. But i'll figure out what i want to do.

i'm so ready for school to start. i'm so ready for the new year, to be a better student, to get better grades. i mean, don't get me wrong, i'm an A-B student, with two C's, and my GPA's 3.75 but i could do so much better. and i will this year. i'm going to make sure i do well this year. i'm actually going to study this year. haha.

that's all for now(:

I'm over at Becky's, what a surprise :P the beach was SO much fun and now, this week, starts my last full week of summer vacation. next wednesday-friday starts the first week of band camp, and there goes my summer, technically. but it's worth it, i supposed. band camp's always fun. last year was pretty fun, but i'm hoping this year will be better &i do pinkypromise you when i get home(probably tomorrow) i'll upload my pictures (:

over the trip, i wrote A LOT! and im now uploading them to fanfiction. a lot of stuff happened in My New Life in the past three chapters that i wrote. i didn't know i had it in me. (: i still have to write my story for the new short story contest that the same place is holding. it has to start with "It was cute until..." and i have a great idea. i'm hoping i do good in this one, too. at least make the finals. i have until august 30th, my birthday. so maybe this one will be good luck, then.

i'm currently not aware of what to write, so i shall come back tomorrow with my pictures(:

in spir a tion

and i'm home alone until tomorrow. well, with out friends i mean. Kaleigh and Savannah are coming over tomorrow, and we're gonna practice guard, and make some tshirts for us, it should be pretty fun. i'm really hoping this year will be good for guard, and that i'll be close with the girls. it'd make me really happy, haha. tuesday, i have my orthodontist appointment, and then guard practice. at 8:30, when practice is over, i'm gonna pick up Becky, she'll spend the night, and that morning we're going to the beach :D i'm quite excited for this: our cottage is the only one around, right off Shakleford Banks, so we can see the wild horses, and it'll be amazing, just sitting on the beach, tanning, taking pictures with Becky. of course, i might not be able to update until friday when we go to a legitimate hotel, and have internet. but i'll definitely try to, and will post some good pictures eventually (: pinkypromise.

i'm trying to write at least every other day now. like right now, i'm forcing myself to write this blog. i really can't think of much right now. and because of the fact my computers broken, i can't write. i mean, i have my stories on my flash drive, so i might do that, and just ponder, staring at the computer screen, waiting for a dash of inspiration.

i despise that i have no inspiration. it kills me inside. i need to get books more often, that's the problem. i don't read as much as i say i do. but today, i did go to the book store i was talking about. got Love Sick by Jake Coburn, and Charmed Thirds by Megan McCafferty. i'm not sure which one i will read first, probably CT. the reviews seem better for it. haha.

Becky actually read one of my stories that i've only posted one chapter of. i've written through chapter 5 i think, but i don't remember. she told me she wanted me to finish it for her birthday, and that made me think about how the one goal i'm afraid i won't finish before my birthday is to finish three stories. i know i'll finish My New Life, i'm making sure i'm going to finish that one. then Through These Eyes(the book), and so i guess i'll finish What I Though Would Never Happen, just for her. and hopefully by the time i'm done writing it, i'll think of a new title, a shorter one, than that. it wont be fun copy 50+ pages before august 30th, plus finish two more stories that aren't done. and i have band camp soon, too, so that will take up all my time. SO STRESSED :/

so, i'm going to wrap this up. an hour + should give me enough inspiration to finish writing chapter five of My New Life. hopefully. once i finish all these books i'm still writing, all like four or five of them, i'm only going to write one, maybe two, at a time from now on--not five! remind me? thanks (:

here i am, watching "Sleepover" with my friend Becky. i'm on her laptop, since my computer broke, and i asked her too. then she started looking at all my books and asked about Sarah Dessen, one of my favorite authors. then i looked up her website, and basically read everything on her website. and now i'm writing this blog. haha.

reading all the stuff on her website made me aspire even more to be an author. and i hate that i'm only 14 and have no chance right now, really. but i can get over it, and just keep trying. i'm sure one day when i'm older and more of an experienced writer, i'll be published. i just have to keep thinking that (:

i'm currently working on my live journal, in which i'll probably copy and paste most of this on there. except this paragraph. haha.

after this movies over, i'm probably going to go to the park with Becky and take some pictures. i lovelovelove taking pictures! whether its pictures of me, friends, me and friends, or photography, i love it. it makes me happy!

and last but not least, i've had absolutely NO inspiration for writing, but i'm in the middle of writing two chapters, one of Through These Eyes(the book) and My World. of course, it doesn't help that my computer broke last night. I just need to go to the book store downtown and get a new book or two, and i'll be great. like i wrote in one of my past entries, hopefully one day i'll be able to sit in front of a computer for 2+ hours and write every day, like how Sarah Dessen, Nicholas Sparks, and Lisi Harrison(my favorites) do. the other day, Becky and I were in a coffee shop in downtown Apex and were commenting on how cool it'd be to bring a laptop here and write stories while drinking coffee, eating a bagel, etc. i'm excited for the future, but also scared out of my mind. but i guess it's all for the best.

so, i only two and a half weeks left of summer because come August, band camp starts(: i'm actually REALLY excited about it because it means schools coming up soon, and that means my birthdays soon. about a month and a half(: but i'm just excited for school this year. this summer, i've definitely changed a lot, and i also want to do better in school this year. i mean, it's not like i did bad freshman year, my GPA was 3.75, but i could do better. last year just was horrible for me and i let it effect my schoolwork. if i tried, i could've gotten a B in my science class, but i didn't. i got like an 83, but still. every point counts, right? i'm just stressing about it because i want to be the one person in my family that goes to college, and my family doesn't have money for it. so, yeah. haha. i'm also excited for my writing classes, and yearbook(: haha. this summers been great though, and i don't want that to end, but i'm ready for school. i actually like school, i just don't like waking up at 5:30am. haha.

thanks for reading(:

speak.

i'm reading a book, Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson. It's more so a playwright, though. but i'm not even half way done with it, but it's devastating. it makes me want keep reading, but i know i have other stuff to do. i love reading, it really moves me. especially if it's one of those tales that moves me to write, if it inspires me. and that's why i love reading, the books inspire me. i've always wanted to be an published author, since i was eight or nine. but i'm still a young author, i need my inspiration to write. my main inspirations, Lisi Harrison, author of The Clique, and Nicholas Sparks(we all know who he is) write every day. they don't care if they don't have inspiration, they still write. but if i don't have inspiration, and i want to write, i sit there, staring at my blank microsoft office page, wondering what to write. i know what i want to happen, but don't know how to get there. and hopefully as i grow as a writer, i will be able to write with out inspiration. that's one of my goals, one i wish to be able to complete soon(ish).
the category i write in, isn't really a category. authors write because they have something to say. and i have a lot of stories to say. everything i write has a little bit of personal experience in it. that's why they're sad. and i guess that's my category? sad, devastating, but interesting. but it works for me. another one of my goals is to be able to write in different categories. like maybe kids, or romance. maybe both? whatever works, works.
"The role of a writer is not to say what we all can say, but what we are unable to say." -Anaïs Nin

summer 20210 has started,

and BOY is it different! i didn't win the writing contest, and i placed sixth out of twelve(or eleven, because i had two win). but it doesn't mean it's gonna bring my hopes of being an author down!(:
on the other hand, i've spent basically all week of my summer with Becky, Blake, and Alli<3 and i've already changed a lot, but i guess it's for the best.
tomorrow i'm going boating with two of my band friends, and then sunday i'm going to krysta's house for almost a week<3
all for now, thanks (:

things are changing;

so many things are changing lately;
summers around the corner, and every time summer drops by, things change. last year, i lost two friendships. i lost my hero. and i was done with grade school, now going into high school. i matured. now, i'm losing friends, i'm changing myself, maturing more, and growing into a person i never thought i'd be.
last night, i dyed the bottom layer of my hair black. it emphasizes a new 'me' is coming. whenever i do something to my looks, a new me is coming. last time i changed, it was because i wanted to be accepted. now, i just want to be myself. yes, i want to be accepted, but i realized that you have to be you to be accepted by the right people, otherwise, you won't be true. i've always known i'm not like a normal 14 year old girl. i've never had any alcohol before, not a sip. i've never done drugs. i rarely cuss. i dislike my father. and i just got my first kiss only a month and a half ago. i'm no where like the majority of girls my age.it makes me special. it makes me unique. and despite all that, i'm still not completely myself. and i'm excited to start bringing out my true self.

summer fever! ♥

Summer is just four school days away! Well, two days considering they're both half days(exams). And i'm so excited! a lot of stuff has gone on this school year, and hopefully this will end it(school ending). of course, a lot has gone on in the past like month: the writing contest, my brother, summer, school, etc.

WRITING CONTEST UPDATE: only one more week until we know the winner<3 haven't had any updates, which saddens me. but i'm quite excited for it, of course! i've been praying a lot, and hopefully i'll win<3 i've been reading a lot more again(which helps me write A LOT), and writing a lot, too. i started a new story, which you can read either on my livejournal( http://xcarey.livejournal.com/ ) or my fanfiction, ( http://www.fanfiction.net/~xcarey ). my brother and i talked today, and he said that i have quite a good chance of becoming an author. and if i post over the internet, and the right person finds it, i may get it sooner than i expected. so, i took his advice, of course.

BROTHER: he ended up moving up here, but only for a month or two. hopefully he'll be okay, now. keep praying, if you have been; and if you haven't please start. thank you.

SUMMER: like i said, summer vacation is SOOO close! of course i have something for band to do(which i'm most likely quitting), a week after school ends for high schoolers. this summer, i'm making sure i get tan at least once haha, and that involves swimming<3 of course, i'm gonna keep writing<3 third week of june i'm going to spend a couple days in Clover at Krysta's house for her birthday :D then i'll be back for Janis's birthday :D and that next week i have drivers ed(YUCK!). in july, i don't have anything(besides guard) until the 3rd week, in which i'm going to the beach with Becky for a week :D then august will be band camp!

that's all i can currently think of. TTE<3

sweet!

So, a few blogs ago, i recall saying that Becky and I entered a short story contest. Last night, i checked out the website, thinking neither of us won because we weren't called or emailed. They had a link to the publisher's website, and said that the winner will be announced June 5th, and gave us the list of the top 12 stories that are in the finals. And both stories i entered are in the top three! and Becky's is number 8! but i freaked out! I was talking to my mom, saying "It says that the winner will be announced-- OH MY GOD I'M IN THE TOP THREE!" and started crying, no joke! haha. i was so excited! Because my goal is to have one story published, and if i complete that goal before i'm 15, i'd be so amazed! I've wanted to be an author since i was 8 or 9, and just thinking that i'm 14, and this good of a writer, it stuns me. Sure, i've won a writing contest before, but not to where i could've gotten it published. it makes me feel great, and that i probably have a future in writing!so please hope and pray that i win! (:
i'm actually about to go write some more, haha. so wish me luck!

Lots of random things;

So, first of all, i would like to go ahead and thank someone very important to me for this idea of what will officially begin the blog, Aimee.


"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."
- Anon
It's a true quote. Honestly, i only have like five or six real friends; and that's what i'm going to talk about- my journey with them. And to be fair, i'm going to go in the order that i met them.
Krysta, has been my best friend for five years. We've been through pretty much the toughest parts in both of our lives; and i can definitely tell you that she's been here for the toughest parts in my life. she's my true best friend, and we're gonna grow up together and die best friends. we've planned our future together(not like that :P). like after college, we're gonna room together, and write/journalism together. then once we get married and have kids, we're gonna be neighbors. and our kids are gonna fall in love :P hahaha. i love this girl with all my heart. seriously. haha.
Aimee, is now like my older sister i've never had. sure, i have my half sister, and then my basically sister-in-law, but she acts more like a sister than they do. we've been through a boat load of stuff, in which i won't get in to. but it made us how we are today. (: we fight like sisters all the time. like earlier this week we fought over our celebrity crush, Devon Werkheiser. And sadly, she won :P but i love this girl. somewhat :P haha kidding.
Becky and I have been friends since last april, when we were both having friend trouble with different people, and she happened to need help in math. (: we both helped each other with that, and we ended up becoming best friends. (: she brings the CRAZY side out of me, oh my gosh it's the funniest thing when we're together. (: so good luck. haha. i love this chick a lot (:
Janis, is also like my older sister, but more so best friend. it's always good having a friend a bit older than you, someone who's more mature than i am, and who can always give me advice. and one who can drive :P i always kid that i only like her cause she drives. haha. she just helps me a lot, which is always great. (:
And then there's Robert, who's also my boyfriend. He just helped me so much with the lowest point of my life. he just makes me smile a lot, and makes sure i'm happy. (:

now that that part's done, i can get to the other part; SCHOOL.
i have two regular weeks left, then one week of exams. then OF COURSE, i have to play at the graduation for band. a week after school's out; well for the high schoolers. so woop-de-do. my goals are to get a tleast a B in my earth science class(i have a C now), an A in algebra(B right now), i'll obviously have an A in band, and hopefully a B in gym/health. i just can't wait for sophomore year! aka, i can't wait for my creative writing class, my intro to yearbook class, and GUARD! (: haha. and just to not be a freshman. :P and then no gym. haha. i might end up quitting band just because i can't really play my instrument anymore 'cause of the fact of my braces. i'm just horrible. :/ but i'll see how it all goes.

for the last thing, i've been writing a lot of poetry lately. well, last week. i haven't had any inspiration for writing anymore, sadly. like i have so many ideas, but i get writers block after like five minutes of writing. and poetry only takes like ten minutes at the most. so it works. so hopefully, it'll go away. (:

so, thanks for reading this long post, Through These Eyes.

hm.

So, this week hasn't been all that great. Monday started off well, actually, because i just had a good day to start off. But Tuesday, i learned that my brother's in the hospital, so that pretty much ruined my week. I barely slept last night, and i didn't pay attention at all at school today and ended up coming home because i was just, not there mentally. So, please pray for my brother and my family, please.
On the good side, my computers fixed! that's really the only good thing that i can think of.
so nothing else is really new since my last update;
thanks for reading through these eyes.

elrsigegegigreaer

So, it's friday! i'm currently over at Becky's (with Alli) right now, just chilling. Alli's on some working out thingy, Becky's sitting on a chair, and i'm on the couch doing this. i haven't really blogged that much since the Baltimore trip because of the fact i've been really busy. only like four weeks of freshman year left, and i'm really excited for summer. i've been acting like it's summer lately, always with my friends from apex rather than holly springs. i just haven't seen them that much over the year, and we grew apart. so i'm hoping that once sophomore year starts, i'll be smarter than this last year, and actually pay attention to my loves from apex.

so, about a month ago me and Becky entered a writing contest that ended today, so i should know soon for who won. the winner gets their short story published, and get a publisher! so we're really excited on that. wish us luck (:

uh, i really can't think of much to say really, i'm kind of distracted with a bunch of different stuff haha. but becky's pool opens tomorrow. (:

so, thanks for reading Through These Eyes

going along with the past one,

so i didn't even watch the video blog from when i was at BECKAYY's. and then Robert texted me saying "ok. why are they all kissing you? and why cant i hear you?" haha, and that drew me to watch it, and i learned that the mic didn't work when i did the video. but, because i'm too lazy to take the video off, have fun watching 6 minutes of us just doing random stuff, when you can't hear me. haha. shout out to Robert, since he told me about the mic not working. i love you♥

sorry does not express how sorry i am,

that i have not posted in like two weeks! i've been majorly busy with a bunch of school crap. the end of the years coming, so that always sparks drama. usually, my drama changes every year between family and friends. this year, it's family, and i stupidly took it a different way than i should've, but i won't go there. i was withdrew from the musical because my band director yelled at me and made me cry, so we're taking care of that. i'm like failing both of my EOC classes, even though i'm doing the work. ugh :/ this has been stressful lately. only a few good things have come out of it though (: like Robert :D haha i can't really go into much detail in case my family reads this though.
so, last night, i made a video blog while i was at my friend's since a)she has a webcam that works(i have one, but youtube doesn't like it), and b) she let me (: so shout outs to BECKAYYY<3 there's not much on it, but you can see how crazy i am with my friends (:



so thanks for reading/watching Through These Eyes<3

Goodmorning...Apex?

Yes, that's right. I know that the songs actually Goodmoring Baltimore, but considering I just got back from Baltimore(at 2am :/), and I'm back in Apex, it fits. haha. The band trip was frekain' Amazing! We got to the hotel(which was totally in the ghetto haha) about 1:15, and i didn't get into my room until like 2. and we stayed up until like 3:30 haha. We had to wake up at like 6 to eat breakfast and get ready for compeition. If we stayed in Baltimore, Maryland, would you make your compeition in VA, like an hour 1/2 away? No. haha. but the bus ride was fun. haha. there was SO much traffic, so on the way back it turned into a 3-4 hour bus ride back, and i slept the whole time haha. Then we really just had free time for a while. the "Phantom of the Opera themed dinner"(in quotes cause it wasn't themed) was horrible :/ disgusting hotel food. haha. but after that, drama time, in which i solved (: it made me feel really special. i got to talk to my ex in person about how i feel about our break up, and the effect of it. it was nice.
saturday, we woke up at like 7, ate breakfast, then went to the amazing aquarium :D (pictures are below) . it was amazing (: i didn't get to see the dolphins, but that's alright. after we ate lunch we went to the Hard Rock Cafe gift shop, and got an 8 dollar Save The Earth tote bag (: and at the aquarium, i got a turtle mood necklace (: after that, we changed and went to Phantom of the Opera! Which was SO freaking amazing! i was so sad when i learned we couldn't take pictures :/ but it was amazing, the whole trip was. i definitely won't forget it (:


(Nemo! :D and Saving the earth water bottle (: )

That's all i can write about right now, i can't think of anything else haha. So thanks for reading about Baltimore, Through These Eyes

Band trip!!

All throughout marching band, my brothers were always talking about the infamous band trip. I remember throughout the 6 years, they went to NYC, Panama City(FL), and on a cruise around the Gulf of Mexico/Florida. And since i'm finally in high school, and and in marching band, it's BAND TRIP TIME (: of course, it's a competition, and we just so happen to be doing fun stuff. haha. so for three nights and four days, i'll be in Baltimore, DC, and Virginia. we're staying in Baltimore, going around DC, and competition on VA. So Thursday(tomorrow) night, at 7pm, i'll be leaving HSHS and sit a good 'ol six hours on a charter bus with my friend, and then a bunch of chorus people. we get to the hotel at 1-2am :D great. haha. then sleep, then competition. then i believe a relax day, and and Phantom Of The Opera themed dinner at the hotel. Saturday, we go to the aquarium! :DDD and then go see PHANTOM OF THE OPERA ON BROADWAY :O and we get to ask the cast questions later (: and then we gotta leave. :/ so, i'll be back home at like 1-3am. fun fun!(sarcastic)i'm really excited (: i promise lots of pictures on sunday afternoon (:
not really much to say now, i'm so excited for it. :D so, sorry for a short one. but considering most of my blogs are pretty long, it's better off short haha. well hope you enjoyed my day/before trip Through These Eyes (:

Linkage

So, today, as the last day of Spring Break, i made a video blog (: One of my goals to do before my next birthday was to make at least two video blogs, so i'm half way there (: if i don't like it after a while, i'll stop it, but as of now, i like it (: i put the videos on my youtube, which is careyxgh, but i'll also put them on here, some how. haha.




As for writing, i put my stories on fanfiction.net. my username is xcarey, but when i update something, i'll leave a link to it. http://www.fanfiction.net/~xcarey (my profile)

If you want to contact me anyway, (facebook, myspace, email), just ask for it (:

Hope you have a good day/rest of the week! Hope you enjoyed my day Through These Eyes

Once again today

So, it's still Easter(obviously); but i feel the need to post another blog today, because it's such a special day, for two reasons.

Reason one---Easter! It was pretty decent, no family feuds until after dinner ended. I got to see my lovely cousin, Jocelyn, and her son, Joey, who i absolutely adore. He's three, so we got to participate in helping, and watching, an Easter egg hunt. I hid a few, then helped him find some. First Easter egg hunt i've done anything with in years! it made today so much more fun. Jocelyn had me watch him after a while, and play outside, which i didn't mind. i took some pictures of this little cutie :D (Picture: Joey after he found all his eggs :D )

Reason two--- April 4th will always be a sad day for me from now on. And it will continue on until April 5th, also. April 4th, 2009, there was a deadly car wreak in Charlotte, NC. Two cars were racing back from Carowinds(theme park) to Clover(SC, right below the border--where i moved from) The car closest to Cindy Furr's neighborhood, happened to have one of my classmates from 7th grade, before i moved to NC, Hunter Holt. Cindy was pulling out when Hunter's car(he was not driving) didn't see them, and hit her car with her and her two and a half year old daughter in it. her car flipped, killing Cindy on impact and ended up killing Mackie later in the hospital. Hunter died a day later in the hospital. Cindy was my hero, she lived her life for the Lord, and i've always admired her. She was the choir director at Pleasant Hill Presbyterian Church, right down the road from the accident. She was actually going to church that Saturday evening. I grew up in that church, as i went there from when i was 8 till 12. I can't even really talk about her with out tear strolling down my cheek. i'm hoping that all three of them will keep watching over us.
I will always love you three. No, i wasn't exactly friends with Hunter, but i do know he was a good kid. Everything happens for a reason, so God has a plan for them three to serve him in Heaven. (Picture:Cindy and I after a church service, that the junior choir sang in. That day, I had a solo singing "I'm Forgiven". I was probably in 6th grade, so i was 11?) Even though April 4th was on Easter this year, i determined to not let it ruin the day that Jesus rose from the dead. I tried as much as i could not to, and i guess you could say i half succeeded. Yes, i woke up depressed, and put on a fake smile at dinner with my family, and cried a couple times today, but i wouldn't say it ruined my day. Again, everything happens for a reason, so God has a plan for everyone. Predestination, i believe it's called. And I totally believe in it. I'll never forget her, my true hero.

Tomorrow's the last day of spring break, and i have to spend my later part of it at school, because my band director, Mr. Biasi(bee-ahh-see), decided to be stupid and plan a musical rehersal on a spring break day. So i'm staying up late tonight, sleeping in late tomorrow, doing my homework i should've done earlier, and maybe practice a little before i go. possibly. haha.

Well, I hope you enjoyed reading Through These Eyes. (:

Easter Sunday

Well, this is my first blog, and since it happens to be my first, i'm just gonna tell you all about me, and then go to blog for the day.

Well, I'm Carey, and i'm 14. i'll be 15 in august. although i'm only 14 physically, i'm much more mature than people take me as. i've been through a lot in my 14 years, and that has matured me. i'm told by my brother that he's proud of me because of that, which means a lot to me. my brothers, Andrew(24) and Kelly(21) mean a lot to me. more so Andrew, because we're a lot alike mentally, and he helps me when i'm having a hard time. my mom is probably the most important person in my life, next to my friends. although as she keeps doing stuff, i'm losing my respect for her. she has rheumatoid arthritis(google it, if you must) and because my dad's an idiot, she hasn't been able to get treatment for years, and it could kill her. she calls me her God send, because i've helped her so much throughout my years. when i go to college, and turn 18(because i'll be going to college before i turn 18), i want to go to somewhere close to home so i can make sure she's okay. (i'll talk about college later) now my dad's a different story. i've hated him for about 6 years now, which sucks. he's a major alcoholic. and a horrible father. the reason i've hated him for 6 years is because one night, he got way-over-the-legal-limit drunk, decided to mouth of to his boss, and got himself fired. yes, his boss was a jerk, but we were getting paid good. but then he was out of a job for 9 months. he just ruined my life, for my whole family, not just me. because of that, i can't stand people who drink. when i was 5, i swore that i'd never drink or smoke-how sad is that? i plan to keep that, too-except my wedding, and it'll be champagne. so sorry people who come to my wedding(whenever that's going to be haha) who want alcohol. so that's my family :P
so, school. i'm a freshman(9), but not for too much longer :P i'm in the band, and i'm quite a band geek-but as my band director is a stupid jerk, it's going down. haha. i've played the French Horn for 4 years now(since 6th grade). last summer, i did marching band for the GHR(Golden Hawks Regiment) and i played mellophone(marching french horn). although this next season, i'll be doing color guard. i did winter guard this past season, and i LOVED it (: although, i hated wearing a dress, but i got over it (: i want to be a writer<3 so i take honors english courses, and sophomore year, i'm taking creative writing I, and intro to mass communications, which is intro to the school yearbook/newspaper classes. i'll probably take yearbook, since it goes more with graphic design, and i LOVE Mrs. Apicella :D i've always wanted to do yearbook, since 6th grade. and i've wanted to be an author since i was 8. (: so, yes, i have a passion for writing. in 6th grade i won an essay contest for my class, of course it was out of like 30 people, and it was about what D.A.R.E has taught me; i wrote all about my parents(xp). in 8th grade, i wrote a SciFi(ish) short story to have the chance to meet David Lubar(author) and have lunch with him. Out of over 1000 people, i won! (: haha. so, once again, i have faith that i will one day become an author, or atleast work for a newspaper(local, if anything). so, Dad, over my three years before i go to college, i WILL NOT change what i want to do! i'm no where close to you, or how you were in high school, so get off my back. As for college, i want to go to a school close to where i live. I live in North Carolina, so there's always UNC Chapel Hill, which is the best writing school in NC apparently, and it happens to be the closest college to where i live. there's also Western Carolina(the best marching band in USA :D), UNC Wilmington(beach :D, but probably a party school because of that), and UNC Asheville. all of those have either journalism or creative writing. so i don't know which i do; but i got a couple years before that happens (: if you want, maybe i'll put an exert of one of my stories on here; i actually have a fanfiction, i'll put the link on here eventually. haha.
my friends are MY LIFE. with out them, i wouldn't be here-honestly. i'll be honest, and say that i've been diagnosed as clinically depressed, which why some of these future blogs maybe sounding sad. and it's all because of my family life, so i tend to either keep to myself at home, or stay on the computer cause i almost always have a friend online; but that's only at home. i try to make sure i have plans on the weekends because i can't be home for a long amount of time with out something drastic happening in my family. i'm involved with a lot of things at school, but now some of them are ending, so i only have one, which will end by the end of april. but my friends are my life, they help me through everything. i tend to be friends with people that are a few years older than me, because of drama people my age cause, and also my maturity level(totally not being conceited or anything haha). but i'm up for any friends<3
now, to God. i used to be this HUGE Christian, but when i moved to NC from SC, i stopped going to church. also, the fact that the choir director was killed in a car accident, now a year ago. on April 4th, 2009, Cindy Furr and her two year old daughter, Mackie, was killed. Cindy was the choir director at my church, and my only true hero because she lived her life for God. i looked up to her, so much. But i have to face the fact that she's gone, no matter how much i don't want to. I love you, Cindy. Keep watching over us, please. Never to be Forgotten<3
So, that's basically my auto-biography. haha. And it's Easter Sunday! I'm trying not to let the fact that Cindy's death, a year ago, is also on Easter ruin it for me. Today, Jesus rose from the dead. (: Later, i'm going over to my uncle and aunt's house for dinner. all of my Dad's side of the family will be there---great! :/ but i can get over it. i haven't seen my cousins in a while. i've only been up for about two hours, so there's really nothing else to talk about. So i hope you enjoyed reading Through These Eyes. (: