Writing month?

And guess what? I won it. I completed my first novel, Time For a Change, within thirty days. It's 101 pages, and 50,666 words. It's not exactly that well, but it's most definitely the best work I've ever written. It was about a teenage girl who just failed her suicide attempt. Over the month or so that the novel goes on with, she falls in love, throws her parents in jail, and becomes her brother's guardian. She knew it was time for a change if she wanted to be happy for the first time in years. Here's an excerpt:

"So maybe I didn’t die for a reason; that’s what the counselor from the hospital was telling me. I didn’t want to believe her though. I just wanted to leave already. I wasn’t wanted in this world by anyone except for Alex; and sometimes he’s not enough anymore. But the counselor told me otherwise. “You’re loved by everyone, darling,” she pat my numb hand. I would shake my head and ignore her just as I did every day when she came to talk to me."

I use that excerpt for everything that's needed for it just because it's one of my favorite paragraphs of all of it. It was used on the NaNo site itself, and also for the yearbook at my school. They interviewed me for my creative writing class, and asked me if they could put something I've written in there. heck yes, you can haha.



As for writing, I won the writing contest! No, not first place...or second...or third... but that doesn't matter! I'm still getting my short story "Family Before Lovers" which is about a girl(of course) trying to break up her brother and his fiance on their wedding day. I'm fifteen, and my life goal is complete: to be a published author. heck yes! (again)

This month of November was pretty good, must I say. Some parts were bad, but I can get over those. This month was amazing. I can't wait for Decemeber now. December 5th is the Apex parade, which the GHR is in. it.will.be.cold.:/ But hey, it'll also be three months for something!(: only few will get it. but I'm very proud about that. Then Dec. 11th is the holly springs parade, that the GHR is in, of course. it.will.be.even.colder. but then the luncheon is after that. and that night is Dani's sweet sixteen(: then just four days later is my brother's birthday. and then there's like a week after that, and then Christmas break!(: I might( AND HOPEFULLY♥) be going to Clover after Christmas, which would just make the ending to 2010 ABSOLUTELY AMAZING. I'd be in Clover for the New Year, which i sort of wanted to be in apex for , but whatever. it's totally worth it. haha.

alright, well, now that NaNo is finished, and I just finished this blog, it's homework time. I already finished my biology, but now I have to read for English. then i need to study for biology. i can't fail that class... wish me luck!

thanks for reading through these eyes♥

Don't be ashamed to cry, let me see you through cause i've seen the darkness, too.

This is one of my philosophies; I'm always here for EVERYONE. I've decided that I want to major in Psychology, and minor in Creative Writing. I mean, you don't need a degree to be an author. So, It all works out well. I love helping people. It just makes me feel like a great person, like I'm trusted and everything. Of course, this is even if I end up going to college. We'll see.

School's been interesting... 3 B's and a C. One of the B's should be an A, because it was a 92.45. The C should be a B because it was an 84.5. then the two C's are 91's. I'm hating my creative writing teacher though. ugh. haha. but this semester is ALMOST OVER. only like 4 weeks left until exams I believe, if not 3. crazy! next semester is geometery, yearbook, theatre, and civics and economics. i'm supposed to get out of theatre for some reason though...ask my friends. haha.

NaNo is going pretty good. i have about 5 days left, and I'm at 36,000 words. I've procrastinated A LOT (like right now) but I work better under pressure. (:

I'm getting a short story published! Can you believe that?! It's absolutely AMAZING! :D Take that creative writing teacher.... :P

Hmm...that's all I think...

Thanks for reading(:

yay for school....

SO! Wow, it's been such a long time since i've updated my blog...haha. I'm actually in child development right now. we're doing a project for calorie intake for pregnant mothers, and six people (INCLUDING DEVAN!!!!!(: ) went to the library. and one of my friends was like "...carey, go update your blog!" so here i am. haha. yayyy.

Devan and I are gonna make smoothies(:

Devan keeps calling me a dork...:/

I wish that I had some cheesecake...haha. I just read an email about the band fundraising cheesecakes. sometimes i wish i was still in band...but if i was still in band, i wouldn't have became BEST friends with Devan :D
Devan's reading this. she's like "...WIN! :D I like that smiley face...."
she's sketch♥ "You would..."

i love her♥

nothing's really that new... marching band ended and now we just have parade season, so we have two practices every other week. yay? we actually have a preformance this thursday for the elementary and middle school kids that are right next to the high school.

oh, my god. speaking of my high school! we got our hour long lunch taken away because there have been a bunch of fights in one week. and now i don't have lunch with my love...:/ (devan) "awwwww!"

hmm......i'm unaware of what to say now, so i think i'm gonna go.

i'll report back probably when i get home :P

♥

evacuate the dancefloor(just the song that was playing...haha)

sorry it's been so long! i didn't really know what to write about on here besides band. i need a new thing :P and i found what i'll be writing about here today!

so, it's october 28th, right? yes. tomorrow's the last home football game of the season. saturday is the last competition. sunday is halloween. and then MONDAY starts NaNoWriMo! and i'm really excited! NaNo(for those of you who don't know) is National Novel Writing Month. it's in november, and we have 30 days to write a novel. i KNOW it'll be hard...but i'm willing to try, and that's what counts(: wish me luck(:




and now, i go to talk about band. :P
we had a competition at fuquay the other weekend. we did GREAT! we got reserved champs, which makes it that every competition we've gone to we've gotten a championship :D this show is just THAT amazing. except at cary band day, we're in class 3A. we're going up against fuqay, which we're not that worried about it, but Middle Creek. they've beaten us every competition, so i'm really nervous about it. but we'll see how that goes. at fuquay, i DID compete, even with my broken ankle. it hurt like CRAZY after. i mean, i was crying after it...:/ medicine was my best friend after that performance! haha. here are some pics (:


ending of the first movement. see, my face does NOT look happy like it's supposed to be...haha


ending of the 3rd movement. see, i couldn't get down on the ground, so i had to stand. and the way i had my hands on the ball(hahahahaha that's what she said... :P) it made me look like i'm sucking my thumb. hahaha. but i like this picture cause it's like they're all my minions or something....hahaha.

so, on october 25, my little nephew was born(: he is SO cute, OMG. hahaha.

SEEEEEE? he's like an angel!! 0:) hahahaha.

mkay, bye everyone(:

More Than A Feeling

More Than A Feeling by Boston. I've always loved Classic Rock, being "raised" by a family of old people. Anyways, this blog is going to be pointed towards my Biology teacher, Mrs. Brown, who really ticked me off today.
So, we're talking about DNA and RNA, right? and someone asks about mutations, and then after she explained it, she was like "that's why depressed people are depressed, there's a mutation in their DNA. it's just a chemical imbalance." and most people know that i'm depressed. and holy crap, that freaking irritated me SO much! their is NOTHING wrong with our DNA! their is NOTHING wrong with us besides the cause of our depression. oh my god, it was horrible! she was saying that we can fix our depression our selves, that we don't need any help, we don't need medication, we don't need to talk to anyone, etc. i almost started yelling at her. we supposedly choose our mood. so, when i want to be sad, i make myself sad? when i want to be happy, i'm happy? "sure, sad things happen, but YOU'RE the one that makes YOU sad! not the sad thing itself!" WTF MRS. BROWN.
i don't think teachers should be allowed to talk about that unless it's psychology or something. you never know when there's a suicidal or depressed kid in the class! or bi polar, which could just set them off! OH WAIT, he'll make himself set off, my bad! -.-

ugh. done for my rant for the day. otherwise, today was great until biology and the bus! i'm really excited for either this sunday or next weekend! you know why? i'm going swimming! why is this so exciting? because i'm gonna try to swim competitively again, and see if i still can. of course, it'll be hard with my ankle...but i can try, right? right. and the reason i'm trying again is because i might be doing the school swim team this year! the only reason i'm not sure about it is because i don't wanna be the ONE fat girl on the team. every swimmer i know that's on the team is skinny. and most teams i'm sure don't even allow fat girls on... :/ so we'll see how that goes. the best thing is that it ends in january, so i can still do winter guard (: but we'll see, we'll see. the worst part is that practice is at 5:15 am :/ but i can get over that, i'm sure. we'll see (:

all for now. bye(:

I don't ever want to believe, that when we die, we all leave

"Believe" by All American Rejects. YUM! haha. The reason I chose this song for the title is because in Creative Writing, we're talking about leaving a legacy. Usually when we die, we don't leave spiritually. Most people will keep those people in their hearts. And that's what I want to do, i want to stay in people's hearts forever. I just want to make a difference in people's lives, and I've already succeeded at that. I've saved three people's lives, and became one person's hero. and it just makes me feel amazing that i could do that. i swear, if i didn't have such a big passion for writing, i would go into Psychology. ♥

We're starting to read "The Last Lecture" by Randy Pousche. Just by watching an introduction video of Diane Saywer inspired me so much. I'm excited to write a memoir, but nervous at the same time. Mrs. Harrell says their gonna be happy stories... yeah right.

So, in creative writing, we just watched Freedom Writers, which is probably my
favorite movie now. It's basically about a teacher believing in her students, and the best part is that it's a true story! I love that movie. I highly recommend it.

I absolutely love my creative writing class; it's full of a diverse group of freshman through seniors, and i love them all. It just breaks my heart to see that we've all dealt with a lot of the same things, and we all write about it. Isn't is sad that in a lot of the short stories we wrote, someone was depressed, harming themselves, or ended up killing themselves? YES! there was one that a kid, Phillip, wrote about an 8th grader getting bullied so much that he went to Niagara Falls and killed himself. A reporter had some how heard about that over facebook, and I honestly almost cried hearing it. It just kills me that people kill themselves and such. It's horrible.

That's four paragraphs about Creative Writing...hmm...haha. Here's some updates on my life outside of school :P
So, I'm probably out of the rest of the marching band season as I broke my ankle :/ SAD FACE! I'm in a boot for at least a month, which makes it impossible to do guard. Friday's game was so interesting because I couldn't march the half time show. here's a picture... haha

yeaaah... haha. it was such an interesting game. and cold!
here's an actual picture of me during our first competition:

that's during the third movement, which is Hide and Seek by Imogen Heap♥

last but not least, this is a picture of me, my boyfriend, my best friend, her boyfriend, and our friend. (:

L-R: Thomas, Me, Devan, Josia, Ian. yayy :D

once my mom wakes up from her nap, I'm probably gonna play the piano. i miss my piano. thanks for reading(: ♥

Don't be afraid to let them show your true colors; true colors are beautiful like a rainbow

Once again, a GLEE song♥ Rachel sings this one, of course(: (True Colors)

That line, don't be afraid to let them show your true colors; true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow, has been speaking to me lately. It's saying that you need to be yourself. Be true. Don't hold back. Don't worry too much about others' feelings. Of course, not many people are gonna do that, now are they? haha. But I love that song.

This has pretty much been a horrible week, until today. Basically just family issues, and then my ankle, but I think(and hope) they're ending for now. Today was just a great day for the most part. My english teacher was absent, and the only bad thing about that was that the photography club meeting was canceled. sad face:/ but child development was fun, we're designing a day care(: it's a lot of fun, too :D then lunch was just a lot of fun with my best friend and my boyfriend and everything. in creative writing, i pretty much wasted the whole time talking with some friends but it was fun. then in biology we just talked the whole time. no homework, no band, and no job interview for a while...ugh. but then i went driving and went to walmart, and the only adult costumes for women they had was hookers. i was like REALLY?! so if the guard's going trick or treating together, i don't know what i'm gonna do. haha.

saturday we have a mini camp and we're learning the 4th movement. i'm NOT excited about that. but then thomas(boyfriend), devan(best friend), and her josia(her boyfriend) are going on a double date after practice. :D we're probably gonna sneak into see My Soul To Take since it's rated R. i've noticed like every scary movie is rated R... haha. hope they don't suck. apparently the Last Exorcist sucked, and I wanted to see that movie. i'll just get it when it's at red box :P haha

hmm.... i think that's all for now, talk to you next time (: